Happy solstice everyone. Yes it was a couple hours ago. Still it's the thought right? I was busy drowning my shame of the Redskins.
I'll be naked in front of a camera tomorrow! Bout damn time. Is naked an addiction? photo is by mmk60
couple videos for viewing musts: Remember powers of 10? This is um newer, trippier? Just watch it:
Also I did the twitter thing for like 36 hours or so. I did gain something out of it. A brilliant bit I would have missed otherwise I'm sure. I hum it all day now.
In thanks and inspiration to iMonstrosity's post earlier today (yesterday now) I'm sharing the two acts i've found in my internet rambles to be ... well... the most sensual and damn sexy circus acts ever. Really check out her post. The Aerial Straps from Varekai are number 3 on my list.
I went back to Reston recently for a shoot with a new photographer. See him on Flickr MM and DA
Be wary the following is full of angst. I'm prone to it.
7/27/05
I go down to the lake at night barefoot in my dreams
The water stills me. I watch, feel, dream. Seeking to shrink down into not-being and then up again beyond
Watching trees as they…show me a thing I do not see Then through the trees… out to flatness and light. a star it moves becomes a satellite turns away disappears
I close my eyes; everything disappears. I am on the river my bluedream River. I whisper to her. I’m sorry for not visiting I am here now. floating in the waves washed away by the crickets. I float up, flowing, feeling tugged like the ocean by the moon. Breathing no words the water of the lake stills me and I feel.
This is why I go down to the lake at night barefoot and in dreams.
My cat just ate an entire shrew. No wonder he's monstrously fat. I mean aren't they supposed to only eat the soft, chewy, meaty parts? He ate the WHOLE damn thing bones went crunch crunch crunch. Yuck.
This gem from Crunchy Roll (which I raved about here) seems to be a stand alone episode of Yasuhiro Yoshiura's "Time of Eve" series. Or at least related since the barista has the same name and the issues dealt with are similar. Asimov fans will get it. Artsy anime fans may enjoy it.
Happy Thanksgiving to everyone! I'm particularly thankful this year: to have the friends and family that I do, The man that I love in my bed, And the kitties and dog that put up with our using the house too.
This song has been haunting my Pandora and I love love love it. I want an instrumental version, the lyrics are a little depressing. I'm trying to de-funkify. No youtube but you can listen here:
Raelyn visited recently on what may end up being her final east coast modeling tour. We became friends not through modeling or because of modeling but rather the lives that modeling creates. (If that makes any sense at all, it does to me so I'll leave it at that) Anyways, I invited her to stay with us and it worked out that she kindly modeled for me on her visit. I wish that I could have taken the week off and gone exploring in dc or something more likely to get two naked girls in trouble. As it was, she got a huge dose of my dorkiness and was a sweetheart to put up with my photo experimenting. The dress is mine. ( as if that needed saying!) Luckily she's tiny like me. I feel very good about the overall shoot. I had a few vague ides based off things I'd been doing on my own in the same room. I didn't get to all of them but I got 4 images that I had in mind and one that I didn't.
I think the back is probably the sexiest part of a woman's body. We all have our own parts we are proud of or admire in others. I personally love a softly curving back. And hair. And toes. And collar bones. This last one is my favorite from the session. It was the first I edited and the one I keep coming back to in terms of picking and prioritizing. Thoughts? I'd like to continue this exploration with other models and in other settings. Female tho I may eventually seek out the boys. Not yet.
The song is actually an old Pandora find. The singer is Dierdre Dubois of Ekova a group I've been fond of for years since their first album. There is naked in this video and a candle oh and pretty nifty music. -------------------------------------------------------------------------
I was in a moody mood when I started this post and this song has been in my mind for really a couple weeks now. I'm missing Montana. Even though I know it's freezing now. I was icked out by the weather. I dislike slow drizzly cold wet slimy days when they can't be properly enjoyed. (at home with the kitties, a book, and tea)Tho the weather has changed for the better. Yesterday was beautiful in Frederick, MD. I chatted with some familiar folks and met some new (to me) photographers and Models. ( an improvement of my previous visit where I only chatted with two people both of who I had plans to work with prior to the meet-up) Joanies Cafe is a haven for cafe lovers and artists and kitties. True to Dan's word there was fantastic art to see and some incredible people to meet. I got to see some new prints of myself in a couple photographer's portfolios. That tickled nicely. I also met a few photographers whom I had admired through the nets that introduction to a face behind the images was nice. I also met a lady who graces both side of the lens. I approached her and put forth a request for her to pose for me. She was enthusiastic and we quickly agreed to shoot each other. Now let's see if the meeting fruits.
I've been thinking about too many things that I either shouldn't be thinking about or are thoughts to procrastinate other thoughts. I've been musing on the reasons why I do certain things. (like modeling) And my plans for the future.
Since moving back to the area, I've run into folks from school and it's frequently a surreal experience for me. You'ld think it should be warm and fuzzy or comforting to see people I know again; that I would try to reconnect. Part of going to MT for me was a disappearing act.
A little on purpose and a little on accident. Prior to leaving ( a year before) I ended a relationship that would have progressed the normal way a healthy happy relationship should progress. I would be married now. I would probably have a child by now, or be planning for one. I would probably be nearly finished with school by now. But I wasn't happy with that direction at the time. I was feeling a lack of control with my life letting it drift that way. It was comfortable but didn't feel right. I'm not a roving vagabond, but I do enjoy my freedom. I have a few close friends which I latched onto at various points and stay in fairly poor contact with them, but I know they are there and I try to let them know I am here. I tend to let everyone else slip away emotionally. I see these people again and where they are in their lives I think about coulda beens. ( not tasty like Lima beans) I am happy with my life and it's direction. I'm just not sure of that direction. It's the mid 20 angst I know but I still am questioning my self more than usual and it's leaving me shaky in my judgment in other areas.
I always say I model to be a part of the process. That's a bit of it and the easiest part. I'm always looking for something new. Different. Inspiring. Exciting. Surprising. Sometimes this search brings me a person, an event, a place, a time, a feeling, a conversation, an experience. I continue to model as part of my exploration of everything. The world around me, the world within me. I strive to be honest with myself and those I interact with. Modeling both enables this and challenges this. Because other people do not see me the same way I see myself, they do not see the world around them/me/us the say way I do. I enjoy seeing the finished results regardless of whether it's "me" or my image/body/figure because it's a window into the photographers world. How they view and experience things effects how they see me. When I work with a photographer I feel like i am entering their world and to an extent exploring them as much as they are exploring me. I like Kollin's world.
Suit.... eeew that's one of those words that just don't look right after spelling them out. It's my 24 on the 24th birthday this year. Unfortunately I'll be donning the "black and kaki" not noodles. I actually do want to say more tonight but I'm completely bushed and really need to get to bed. Middle of the work week and all. But! I do want to boast about my plans to hit the town on Saturday and attend the 2009 National Book Festival Dual mission there; Listen to/ meet Lois Lowry, and take photos.
Both photos in this post (and the banner above) are from an early summer shoot with Mike Methenywww.loneshepherd.com While I was kindly allowed to edit these two, all copyrights are held by the photographer. The goal this weekend is to upload the rest of the images from this shoot onto DA and maybe finish my thoughts here.
I whisper to her. I’m sorry for not visiting I am here now.
mmk60 or on his MM
The dress is mine. ( as if that needed saying!) Luckily she's tiny like me. I feel very good about the overall shoot. I had a few vague ides based off things I'd been doing on my own in the same room. I didn't get to all of them but I got 4 images that I had in mind and one that I didn't.
I think the back is probably the sexiest part of a woman's body. We all have our own parts we are proud of or admire in others. I personally love a softly curving back. And hair. And toes. And collar bones.
I was icked out by the weather. I dislike slow drizzly cold wet slimy days when they can't be properly enjoyed. (at home with the kitties, a book, and tea)
Tho the weather has changed for the better. Yesterday was beautiful in Frederick, MD. I chatted with some familiar folks and met some new (to me) photographers and Models. ( an improvement of my previous visit where I only chatted with two people both of who I had plans to work with prior to the meet-up) Joanies Cafe is a haven for cafe lovers and artists and kitties. True to Dan's word there was fantastic art to see and some incredible people to meet. I got to see some new prints of myself in a couple photographer's portfolios. That tickled nicely. I also met a few photographers whom I had admired through the nets that introduction to a face behind the images was nice. I also met a lady who graces both side of the lens. I approached her and put forth a request for her to pose for me. She was enthusiastic and we quickly agreed to shoot each other. Now let's see if the meeting fruits.
Since moving back to the area, I've run into folks from school and it's frequently a surreal experience for me. You'ld think it should be warm and fuzzy or comforting to see people I know again; that I would try to reconnect. Part of going to MT for me was a disappearing act.
I always say I model to be a part of the process. That's a bit of it and the easiest part. I'm always looking for something new. Different. Inspiring. Exciting. Surprising. Sometimes this search brings me a person, an event, a place, a time, a feeling, a conversation, an experience. I continue to model as part of my exploration of everything. The world around me, the world within me.
I strive to be honest with myself and those I interact with. Modeling both enables this and challenges this. Because other people do not see me the same way I see myself, they do not see the world around them/me/us the say way I do. I enjoy seeing the finished results regardless of whether it's "me" or my image/body/figure because it's a window into the photographers world. How they view and experience things effects how they see me. When I work with a photographer I feel like i am entering their world and to an extent exploring them as much as they are exploring me.
